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Dear Readers,

Today.. I'll be discussing about something that should have came to my realization a while ago, but sadly it didn't happen so. I've come to realize of where I am. Of my current self. And have also come to understand something that a wise friend of mine told me.

"We all have our own universe, we each ARE a universe, in a sense.. Everyone has one and IS one. And when you come to realize that, you'll come to see and understand that each and every person in your life... stranger, friend or family has affected YOUR universe as YOU have affected theirs. The affect they have on your universe affects you, because it IS you. All your thoughts and beliefs and characteristics and opinion and everything that you are is what your universe is composed of. When someone else comes into your life, they leave a small imprint in your universe, they change you in a subtle way. For example, if you walk pass by a stranger and he smiles at you, that in turn affects you, consciously or subconsciously.
That very action affects your universe because that action allowed you to realize that there are friendly people in this world, or some other conclusion. And that in turn has affected you."

I can't remember exactly everything she said, and there is more to this, but it's not coming to me for the moment. My apologies.

So anyways. I've realized that this world and the personal experiences that I had to go through has made me who I am today. Has brought me here to another country, away from my home, for a reason.

That reason ... I'm still trying to figure it out. Hopefully though, I hope to be able to find it. My reason here in life. My purpose here in life.



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Uni uni UNI uni

First week of University has already gone by.

And I'm already kinda stressing.

But. It's a good stress I suppose. A stress that'll be nagging at me to study each day.

To be the best.

To get those high marks.

To know what I'm talking about.

Good job Kev.

Prime Minister **Kevin Rudd** - Australia* *

Muslims who want to live under Islamic Sharia law were told on
Wednesday to get out of Australia , as the government targeted
radicals in a bid to head off potential terror attacks..


Separately, **Rudd** angered some Australian Muslims on
Wednesday by saying he supported spy agencies monitoring the
nation's mosques. Quote: *
*'IMMIGRANTS, NOT AUSTRALIANS, MUST ADAPT. Take It Or Leave It.
I am tired of this nation worrying about whether we are
offending some individual or their culture. Since the terrorist
attacks on Bali , we have experienced a surge in patriotism by
the majority of Australians. '

'This culture has been developed over two centuries of
struggles, trials and victories by millions of men and women who
have sought freedom'

'We speak mainly ENGLISH, not Spanish, Lebanese, Arabic,
Chinese, Japanese, Russian, or any other language. Therefore, if
you wish to become part of our society . Learn the language!'

'Most Australians believe in God. This is not some Christian,
right wing, political push, but a fact, because Christian men
and women, on Christian principles, founded this nation, and
this is clearly documented. It is certainly appropriate to
display it on the walls of our schools. If God offends you, then
I suggest you consider another part of the world as your new
home, because God is part of our culture.'

'We will accept your beliefs, and will not question why. All we
ask is that you accept ours, and live in harmony and peaceful
enjoyment with us.'

'This is OUR COUNTRY, OUR LAND, and OUR LIFESTYLE, and we will
allow you every opportunity to enjoy all this. But once you are
done complaining, whining, and griping about Our Flag, Our
Pledge, Our Christian beliefs, or Our Way of Life, I highly
encourage you take advantage of one other great Australian
freedom, 'THE RIGHT TO LEAVE'.'


'If you aren't happy here then LEAVE. We didn't force you to
come here. You asked to be here. So accept the country YOU
accepted.' **


Maybe if we circulate this amongst ourselves, WE will find the
courage to start speaking and voicing the same truths. **


If you agree please SEND THIS ON* *and ON to as many people as
you know*

The Bush Fires.

It's crazy.

It's horrible.

And it makes you think. About how helpless we are, and how we are depending on a government whom is supposed to be HELPING us out and who should have already had a plan to avoid this or to at least have had something installed in fire prone areas like .. I don't know ... An alarm of a sort which could detect fires from afar to help people evacuate early? Which .. has already been researched and proven to work! 4 .. YEARS AGO!

What the hell are they doing with all of the taxpayers money!? Sure, maybe SOME of it is going into an economy stimulus package. But others should be going into the healthcare system and into ways of preventing this kind of things happening.

Gah.

And now, I'm going to work.

Please donate money (if you're an Australian resident) to the Bushfire Appeal, if you can.

Nikolai.

Quote of the day

" Those who read to accumulate knowledge without putting to practice what they have learnt are like donkeys carrying a load of books "

So true.

Unexpected things.

There are many things in this world that we expect to happen, and many things that we don't.

And when the things that we expect doesn't happen, we disappoint ourselves.

But what happens when we get something we don't expect?..

How do we react to that? Naturally, one would react with either one of the extreme reactions, they would be either really happy or really ... disappointed. (As would be the same outcome for what would happen if we get what we expected).

But it's an amazing feeling though. Getting what you've always wanted, but in an unexpected way. It's like .... finding an amazing treasure that you've always wanted and pursued for years, and in the end, it unexpectedly turns up to have been always right in front of you. It's ... truly intriguing and unexpected. But. It's fantastic.

And in a way, I thank God for making things work that way, because I can truly appreciate what I get through unexpected events.


Nikolai.

Tennis. Beer. Sleep. Thirsty.

Tennis: Today I worked at the Australian Open. Woke up at 7. Did my things. Ate at 8. Mmmm avocado and half boiled eggs on toast.. Fell into a sleepy daze at 8.30 - 9. Was driven to the station, where I was 5 minutes early before the train! Suh-weet! Went into a sort of a sleepy daze again, and time flew rather quickly. Walked to the stadium. Changed clothes, etc. Then. Then. THEN I WAS STUCK WAITING ON A BENCH FOR 1 HOUR. GAH. lol. Was given the shittiest directions to my outlet and due to that I was wandering around aimlessly whilst being burnt alive and possibly turning into an African. (no offense!) Found my bloody outlet after 20 minutes. Then was chucked to the outlet opposite cos I was good with my beer handling. Then worked with a tall dude called Nicky and we did pretty well as a team. Hoorah!. Lol, I made some rather disappointing mistakes whilst on the cashier, due to me just randomly forgetting people's orders as soon as they paid for their drinks.... How embarassing. Ah well. They laughed about it, so it was aalllllllll good. Within a few hours in the hot tent I worked at, I was relieved of my registering duties and was promoted to awesome fridge stocking duties. Which felt like HEAVEN due to me having to keep returning to the fridge to pick up the drinks. Yaaaayy.

Beer: Seeing to much of beer can really affect a man's mind. Mind especially. During work, each cup of Heineken beer I poured made me even more thirstier throughout work. At the end of my shift, I swear I was just a tad bit intoxicated. Lol. Well not really.

Sleep: Sleep. is. AWESOME. I so needed some today. And I think I will for the next few days after worrrrrrrrk.

Thirsty: I've been rather parched since after work. Drinking as much water as I can but it's not really helping.

I'm kinda happy that I finished work a bit early today, because I got to get my sleep. And I get to talk to ... friends late at night tonight :).

Take it easy guys,
Nikolai

Yesterday. Today.

Yesterday was the best night of my life.
Today was the day I did not wish to meet.

I'm also missing my sLeepZ. sigh.

Wow.

It's amazing.

Right now I'm sitting by Khai's porch, under the shade of the palm trees and the other tall, thin and leafy trees. I noticed and realized how AMAZING plants and life and everything in this world is ... if I looked at it from a Biological students perspective.

Where did this come about?... You ask.

Here's the story.

I looked at the ferns below me and realised that it was a different species compared to the one back home (obviously so)... Thinking back to the Biological aspects of diversity and adaptation I've realized that we could apply this NATURAL law to practically anything! ..

Even ourselves.

Everything in this world is so diverse, different, a species of it's own, even though when you look back far enough, we all come from the same origin. Everything plays a role in this world. We change to our sorroundings, we adapt and then we 'become'.

But being humans ... we have the choice and the ability to change our 'set' mind to become better, to become fitter in a sense. That's whats amazing. We are here for a reason. This world is truly our oyster. Our treasure is already in front of us. Our life is really our lesson. Our world is our teacher. The aspects and order in life in the natural world is what we should strive to protect. Because that is our way and our road to discovering our true selves. Life ... the world ... it is all but wrong, coincidental or chaotic. We are here in this world to find outselves. And nature is the key to that.

(Alright I realize that I kinda went off topic here but meh)

The animals, insects, bacterias, trees, rocks, mountains, nature's force... everything that is natural in this world, they all reflect a lesson for us to meditate on, they can teach us humans to understand ourselves even more.

Although that rant sounded spiritual of me, I just realized that I have a long way to go in terms of being a better self... because an ant crawled onto my arm and I instinctively crushed it and flicked it away.


Sigh.

The Mystery of the History.

The Mystery of the history of a person.

That's an aspect of a human that makes them who they are.

Therefore ... we shouldn't look at an individual and judge them from their recent actions...

But we should understand that the person only acted so because of their mysterious history.

Elephants.

Today I rode on an elephant.
Not a big deal to some. Means nothing to most. But, wanna know what I think of it?.

It's.


frucking.


Amazing.

That darn animal was fantastic. The eyes, it was so .. aware. If anyone can't see the intelligence behind that eyes then they should have been able to see it through it's mighty fine motor skills with it's nose.

Ahhh. I wanna type alot. But i'll type more on that later.

..

Fuck.

As in Fornication Under the Citation of the King.

Fuck.

As in. What the fuck happened.

My Grandfathers.

"Are any of your grandparents still alive?" - L.T
"No, all three are gone."
"You mean two." - L.T
"No... three."



Had a conversation with my cousins, B.K and L.T about their grandfather's recent death. They then asked me about my grandfathers, and enquired if any of them are still alive, excluding the same grandfather we share.

I felt a pang in my heart, during the conversation. It was the old familiar pain I feel, each time I remember my step granfather (mother's side) and my grandad (dad's). It still hurts. Talking about the two I knew. My heart does ache at the very thought of them. Even speaking about them will effectively bring my energy down for a bit.

I miss them.

But, I know that I will meet them again..One day.

Nikolai Mark Rodrigo.